A fairy

I'm feeling a lot of Bear this past hour or so. It's interesting, because I had thought that Lion, Tiger or Deer were my animal guides. However, I'm feeling Bear very strongly, so I'm just going with that. I know Bear is a lot about inner strength and passing on wisdom and advice to others, which I've certainly done.

The inner strength is really what calls to me, about this animal, because I've found time and time again that, given the right person to hold the space for me, the strength within me to find the ways of articulating what's going on is so incredibly deep, and so vast. I know that some people are really intimidated by me, or find my self-confidence and presence a little overwhelming; they're not sure how to take it, but the more that I stand in my own space and acknowledge who I am and really hold the space for myself, trusting and growing in awarenesses of what it's like to live in this body and have my experiences, I can understand how this totem has come to me.

I value animals who value taking time over things, and really pondering and sitting with things that are of great importance and thusly take a while to ascertain for certain. Not everything needs to be thought out to such great depth, but things like a name or the stalwart nature or strength of a person really need to be discerned sometimes.

I've decided not to take on the name Aurilion. I nearly went through the process of changing it, but I found that that would be putting myself in a place that didn't feel comfortable. It worked for a time, but it's no longer where I am now, and I don't truly feel that it fits where I've grown to now.

I think one of the most beautiful things about 'growing up' is finding out what your strengths are. I do have a lightning-quick intellect at times (or perhaps more than that) but if I know one thing for certain, it's that with things that are really important, I'm working on really testing those things against my own inner values and beliefs. And not just that, but I sniff and feel it all, all the way, with all of myself. I sit with it, listen to it, dream with it, really let myself absorb it. If it doesn't feel right in any way, I don't let it all the way in. There's just not enough time or space that I have extra to give to see if something (or someone) is a good fit for me. In the past I've been drawn more on emotions and blindly into situations, but now, with the toolkit I've been expanding and the awarenesses that have been coming up and brought to the light, I'm discovering that I'm actually a much more thoughtful and clear person than I have been before.

I have a clearer idea about where my energies should be going, and where they want to go, and to question thoughts or motives that don't feel quite accurate. I'm in SO much of a better place now than I was about.. oh just a few months ago!

So, to wrap this up, it's just a good feeling to have, when one knows oneself a little better, whether they be in a dreaming cave and the night outside painted with stars and the tops of fir trees, or in the deep woods, nestled against an old tree.

ETA: Oh AGH. The problem with excavating and self awarenesses and being present and that sort of thing is that if one thing doesn't seem or feel right, it will come to the surface -immediately- (at least that's how it seems to be for me). Like the wand in the metaphysical store that I couldn't seem to put down, and even when I had it put away, I would ask for it to be taken out three or four more times. Finally the guy said something like, "I haven't shown this in a week, and you're the only person who has connected with it so deeply." So I took it home.

So, right after making the first part of this post, what immediately hit me was, "It's not the name itself -- that is fine and has nothing to offer but what you might need or who you might be, but rather it's something else you're feeling about it (I won't go into details here, but suffice to say that I was judging it compared to something else, and not taking the name by itself)"

Ok, OK.. alright then, I guess the heart wrangling struggle is not over yet. And I DO take the words of good friends into mind, like sistahraven's comment on that she felt that it deeply resonated with her for me.

It's been a while, of much, much learning, much growth, and a hell of a lot of digging deep into the layers that don't really want to come up, but they do anyway. It's their time.

After a couple of particularly icky days, I sat in my herbalist's office, first crying my eyes out about who knows what, and then pulling my wand out of my bag, and letting it just hold the space and clean it all away. And then, GIGGLES! Just giggling and yawning, my best ways for release. I feel strong, grounded, full of light, strong and just utterly centered in myself. Old things are falling away; old patterns are being shed.

My journey is my own, that's for sure. I can just say that I am -very- much more alive today than I have been recently. Enough with the debris!

And, well, the funny thing is, the name thing has been coming up again. Yesterday, it just popped up, and I was remembering the times in which I've either requested it to be used instead of my given name, or that I've been compelled to use it instead of my given name. Interesting how new identities, or an identity of one's own can be so transformative to one's existence, along with the whole coming of age thing. I'm definitely shedding my parents. I can feel that, and I'm just observing it as it happens.

It's a really beautiful place, where I am. I feel clear and beautiful. I feel my journey is unfolding just exactly as it needs to, and it's perfect. It's hard sometimes, but I've been cultivating trust in where I am, and just observing the process. Even when I want to curl up and cry, or have the blackest mood ever, just to release everything and let the soft hands of the universe just lift me up again and put me on the path.

It's interesting -- I don't know that I need any set spiritual path. That's something that I'd been contemplating for a while, and I think when I'm in my more cloudy spaces, I wonder if I could try "fitting" myself into one of those. They seem awfully cozy sometimes. But truly, I'm creating my own. Trust, fearlessness, grace, innocence, wisdom, and an open heart. I am right where I need to be.

Despite it being windy and rainy outside, I feel calm, grounded, and centered. Beautiful. Just strong and clear. Trust in the process is one of the most profound things I have both experienced and have had mirrored back to me. I am where I am, and that is simply the best thing for me.

Welcome dear ones. We area a time in our history where we are being asked to follow our deepest selves, our highest truths, our true selves. These selves may not correspond with who we have been in the past, or how our selves may have looked to others, but rest assured that we are following our Divine purpose all the way!

This is a time of great joy, of surging energy and revitalization. Winter may be upon us, Fall coming early, but there is lots of new growth happening, and much inter-planetary communication is being shared.

You are in the presence of the great System, though not a computer system. The great knowledge and wisdom of the earth that is directing these changes. Archangels, fairies and esspecially the stone beings right now are rising up and reminding us of our place. Each of you has a stone with your name on it. The sone that is most valuable to you right now, in terms of showing you where your life purpose is. It may be protective, uplifting, calming, energizing, soothing, but it will give you exactly what you need right now.

The task of earthlings right now is to find the stone which most resonates with you. Any stone which resonates with your highest being is the one for you. This stone will see you through many trials and tribulations, but most of all, it will guide you to see the joy, the beauty and the preciousness of who you are and your soul purpose.

In this time it is important to realize that you are not alone. We are with you, all beings of each kingdom, Angels, Fairies, and news from elsewhere. There are dynamic changes afoot, and listening to your guidance (which is us whispering in your ear), your very finely tuned guidance is what will bring you to a place of even greater power. Listening to yourself is one of the most important things you can do for yourself right now (and ever, but even more potently right now). There are things which you need, and things which you do not, and your guidance, whether it be from emotional signals, messages, images, feelings, whatever it is, will steer you right.

Others may try to dissuade you, thinking that they know what is best, but truly, how can anyone besides yourself know what is best for you? Of course you can ask for guidance and advice from others, which are really just suggestions and recommendations, but truly consulting your own counsel, your own higher self, is important.

Your body knows what it needs and what it does not. Let go of what you do not need and work with what you do. This guidance system is a beautiful thing, and something to be deeply cherished. The voice of "No, not that" and "Oh yes! That feels right!" are to be held deeply sacred, and listened to, as you would listen to the needs of a child.

Be kind and gentle to yourself. You know what you need.

I'm feeling really, -really- awesome. I'm not sure where this sudden burst of good energy has come from, but I'm very happy to have it!

My meeting with my herbalist today was really good (I've been taking tea to help with easing off the medication) -- she brought out her herbal tarot deck and let me look through them and see what really resonated with me. It was beautiful. Her teacher had actually drawn the images, and they were gorgeous!

I also made a big decision not to go back to the naturopath I saw today. Nothing against her personally, but right now I don't need four people involved with my healthcare. Three is quite enough. I so, SO appreciate my herbalist right now. She's down to earth, very open and honest, very heart centered, and highly sensitive -- really one of the most awesome people to work with.

Coming home, I found some wonderfully feeling stones to set up as an altar at home in my room, and that brought in -incredible- Goddess/Divine feminine energy. I was also able to release stuff that I'd been holding onto/carrying for a while.

Something else happened at home, which I was able to identify as Not Being My Problem, and let it go. Quite a big thing for me!

Whee for lots of energy!

M, a friend from the Angel Workshops, and a good friend of P's, has talked some about this boy who we know through his mother (and he himself has come to a meeting of ours), and how he can speak the language of any spirit, whether it be Russian, German, Spanish, French, whatever, he can speak the language.

I was thinking about this, because when I get really deeply involved with a spirit world matter, there are some instances in which I can foresee that I may be speaking the language of the spirit. And it probably won't be English.

A lot of things I do, with healing, that are completely nonverbal, but there are other things which ask me to travel, spiritually, along the path and find out what's going on in the spirit world in order to ask for changes and negotiate differences in the physical realm. It's been a while since I've done this, but I'm certain I can do it this time.

Speaking with the spirit world, it's so crucial to listen. Really, to just listen. Observe, feel, hear, just be.

I'm doing something today that I believe will take me into that world, a little further than I usually go, but it's for a good cause.

Something I can't help notice (and it's definitely different from how I've felt in the past) is that when I'm around these very spiritual people, some of them have had near death experiences, or out of body experiences, and they want to go back to Heaven, back to the Divine light and love that they felt when they were there. I have spent most of my life wanting to go back "home", wherever that was. I had a huge fascination with the night sky, and the sky in general. I felt a distinct feeling of being alienated and alone, just plain different.

But now (and perhaps it's the tea that my herbalist has prepared for me, because that has been working wonders for me) I'm feeling much more comfortable on earth, very, very much like an old soul, and I'm not sure exactly what it is, because I know I've felt that great light and love before, but it's as if I know my duty here. Not all things are in place for everything to happen just yet, but it's a matter of trusting and faith, and giving myself over to Spirit, again and again, and following my guidance.

I just keep pondering this and sitting with this. It's as if I know why I'm here, and while I know there's a great Unity in the divine, I feel that, without questions or any doubt, right where I am. It's like I -know- that I'll be taken care of, no matter what. I don't know what my faith is, exactly, or if there is a name for it, but I'm pretty sure that I've been guided to it and have found it, whatever "it" is.

And it's like, because this is here, my abilities and gifts have so much increased. I feel much more powerful, more seated in the deepest roots of my being.

So last night I went to this meeting with the Triad Metaphysics meet up group. I'm getting the intense feeling that I'm being groomed for something, like just being a conduit for healing energy, in whatever form that may take, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual. These groups are really opening me up to what I can do. It's interesting because I seem to discover my abilities as I'm around people who need my help, or I find myself offering my help.

( What happened last night.. Mostly cut for length )

Lately I've felt quite strongly the presence of one of my guides, Pantelomime (Pan-tell-oh-meem). His name keeps coming up, and going through my head.

"I am here for a very special reason. You are about to undergo a very difficult challenge, but I am here to help you all the way. You are here because others need you. You have committed yourself to a very special path, a path that not many others would ever choose, but you chose it because you knew that you could do it. This is not easy, but that's never stopped you before.

You are here to be a guiding light for others. This is one reason why your channeling is important to be public, so that anyone can access it. There will be those who can't believe what they're reading, and others who will resonate exactly with what you are saying.

You've been wondering for a while now what your spiritual path is. *gentle chuckles* Well, it's not exactly one that anyone on Earth has recognized yet. At least not with words. Everyone knows kindness, gentleness, a protector angel, a guiding light, but those don't exactly fit into a category, do they? *gentle smile* You are here as a protector, a guiding light, a healer, but most of all, you are a guardian. Not exactly a guardian Angel, although that is certainly how some of it feels like it's manifesting.

You are here for many people, all at different times, rather than one all the time. A spirit guide, yes, but what you are is a little stronger than that. Not to say that spirit guides aren't strong, for they can be incredibly powerful, but there's a quality of 'real'ness that you have that others don't.

This next test will be to challenge your strengths. I know that you have many, but this is a strength that you don't know much about. I know you will prove well worth this, as you have so many times before. You are indeed a Protector, with powerful healing abilities. It was you who healed C's injuries, and you'll do more of that, when the time is right. You are only now embarking on your destiny. You are only now coming to the fruits of your labor. Each step is a grand journey, all in of itself, but you are almost there. There is a lot going on right now, and you are admirably riding each wave and following your guidance. I love you!

Be well, be blessed, and most of all, know that you are watched over and guided by powerful Angels. Don't doubt your powerful guidance -- you are being guided, subtly, in paths that will lead you right to where you need to be.

Much love, Pantelomime

The time is coming ripe. Many changes are taking place and many things are falling into place where we never would have thought they would. Things are moving rapidly now, much more rapidly than anyone could have foreseen. There is a sense of lightning quickness in the air. It is partly the Angels at work, and partly the rapid order of the planets. Roles are changing now, as energy shifts. This is a time when we are being called to serve our true roles, to be our true selves.

It doesn't matter what you think or what you believe, there is a great Calling to simply be who you are. Whether that is having no beliefs at all, or an unshakable faith in the god/goddess, whoever has called to you, you are being asked to serve up a new role. These roles won't be hard unless you resist the change. We understand that these changes can feel scary, but let us assure you that everything is happening in Divine order. If there is something which feels very not right, one can always summon Archangel Michael and simply say, firmly, "I'm not interested. Leave me alone," and the energy will be forced to leave.

However, the planet right now is being charged with a great crystal. This great crystal is where the knowledge of all the ages has been held. This new information is being funneled through, and the ones who are sensitive will feel it first.

In 2012, there will be a complete alignment of all the planets, and what that is is when the great crystal charging the planet now will be fully in alignment, and when these upheavals will begin to take their form, in the way of peace. We all live lives of contrast, for sure, but this will be different.

There are many things still in progress, many more messages to be delivered, which is why we have asked this one typing to come back to the journal.

Love, light and blessings to all who enter here.

We are on the verge of a new awakening. We have come very close, in the past, to this new place, but now it is being placed directly into our hands. We hold the keys to our fortunes, and to our futures. We are the lights burning, the sun directly above us. The Angels are with us and all around us. The way is being prepared for us. There is no need to be alarmed, no reason to fear. Everything is happening in perfect, Divine order.

Right now Archangel Michael is speaking through me. "You have had a very tough road, very tough indeed. It is not often that so much is asked of humanity, but you have done very well. It has been extraordinarily difficult, but because of your dedication, the work is close to being done. All the roles that you have taken up as a part of this process, you will be able to let go of. And new roles that you may have felt once or twice, or more, before this, will soon be yours to come.

There is no reason to fear -- we are all around you. Raphael surrounds everyone in the healing green light, the light of Mother Earth Herself. We are all surrounding you, I with my fiery sword, clearing the way of negative and lower/denser energies, and so many others who exist here for the sole purpose of serving humanity. We are on a never ending quest to help, to protect, and to gather those who are needed for their purpose. There are gatherings happening continuously, both in light form and among the earthly plane. This is a time of great re surging, of remembering who you are.

It is the time of remembering that you're not alone, the time to relinquish any hold on control that you thought you had -- it's really all just an illusion. Let go of your hold on control, and let the Angels guide your steps. This can go from as simple (but as profound!) as smiling at a stranger on the street, or writing a letter to a friend you haven't spoken to in a while, to quitting a job that no longer fits, and seeking out one which meets your heart's desires.

We don't necessarily suggest that everyone has to make life-changing decisions, such as moving or quitting a relationship, but there will be some who will find it no longer valuable to be in these sorts of situations, and the time will simply be right to find a new path. Once we feel these urges, a new path is indeed already there, already shining before us.

We are called here together, today, to discuss the plans of moving. There is a holding cell where many people are, energetically. We are holding them here because it is the best place possible, always in alignment with their higher purpose, and because it is where they have chosen to come to. This place is not in the physical realm, but rather in the spiritual. If you are there, and we believe most everyone to be there, in some way or another, then you will resonate with what is being typed here. Each one of us is creating a sanctuary for you, a sanctuary that is healing, life-giving, nourishing and nurturing. It is this place where you will thrive until the next step. We know when this step will be, but it is not measured in linear time, but rather the time when everything is ready.

Light preparations are being made, and Angels are working speedily behind the scenes to facilitate great wonders, beyond your imaginations. This is a time of great upheavals, learnings, teachings, and realizing that you are much, much more than you think you are. The seed of greatness is in everyone, and greatness has nothing to do with how big or small it is that you do however you do. It is simply the heart, the integrity, of the act, of the service.

We are here to assure you that everything is going in complete Divine order. We know there are those of you who doubt, who don't know what to look for, and who can't think what possibly might be up. However, these nights of restlessness, great fatigue over seemingly nothing, or loss (or gain!) of appetites, are simply part of the process. They won't last for much longer -- they are just your body's way of adjusting to the global, spiritual climate change.

With great love and respect, we salute you, for all of your efforts. You have truly, and continue to be, been an amazing group to work with. We will continue to help facilitate beautiful changes, as do the Fairies.

Farewell for now, and we will come to you again, soon. Many changes are afoot, and it's important that the lighthouse not burn out."

You know, there's a reason for grounding before ceremonies and the like. There's a reason for structure, a reason to be organized, to do the basics like introductions, saying that this is a safe place to say things, and that anything said in said place will stay in said place.

It amazes me how resilient and strong my spirit is, it truly does. I feel all down and everything, for good reason, and then this inner strength just surges up. I'm so incredibly thankful to be this person, in this body, in this realm!

I have a magnificent heart, and I move towards those things that deeply resonate with me. I am continually drawn towards those things, people, and places which serve my highest good and provide me with more experiences to discern what I do want and what I do not want.

It's not so much that there are bad things, people, or situations, but those which are less helpful than others. It's most necessary to be aware of oneself during these experiences, to release/cleanse in any way that feels right, and to dress or say or create something that feels -really- you, in order to feel that familiar spirit again.

I am learning some very important things about myself in these experiences, which is incredibly valuable. Knowing what I do not want is a powerful thing. Another thing to remember is that I let Time do the work. Just relax, let Time flow and do its thing. Rest and renewal are the best things for a spirit, as well as hard work when the sun is full and there are things to be done.

It's quite alright to be just where I am. To any who ever say that I'm too young to know everything there ever is, I say, "The most important thing I ever need to know is what I know in this moment." It simply doesn't get any better, or simpler than that.

We are at a turning point now. Great energies are shifting, plans we thought we had are being dismantled, and everything seems to be utter chaos. However, even if all things are looking like a disaster zone and we simply do not know which end is up, trusting in the higher and Divine order of everything would do us well. We were not brought here by careless minions who thought that playing tricks on us would be fun; rather we were lovingly guided here by Angels and Fairies, all of our guides, and our experiences and lessons that we brought with us from past lives. We -are- all here for a purpose, whether we can see it right now or not.

Some may doubt our ability to pull through with these ideas, but many have had powerful enough experiences that they -know- that they can indeed harness the power of the Universe and use it for the highest good of all of Creation. It takes courage to step into our power, and courage to believe in ourselves. But, this is what all good humans do - we step into the mystery of the unknown and trust it to guide us. And guide us it most certainly will.

I have kept seeing these images of a very quiet woman, graceful and maybe a little willowy, who speaks with love in her eyes and smiles and deep peace, wrapped in a shawl and taking care of a cauldron over a roaring fire that sits in a stone fireplace. She tends to herbs, plants, and has a deeply loving, gentle nature. All are welcome around her, all is peaceful, and there's no need to talk. Everything is taken care of, there's no need to hurry. She is quiet, mostly because she need not speak, but also because her very presence brings peace to all who come to it, and it fills up the room. It's such peace that words are not necessary, for within silence is the greatest communion.

This is Deer, deer energy. In the forest, there is no need to worry or rush, there is only the sun dapplings on the leaf covered ground, and apart from the squirrels foraging about, the heart lies in stillness, completely content, and it lies nestled in the bosom, gently beating.

This is the kind of presence that everyone wants to be around. Those who are unaccustomed to the silence may find themselves feeling disconcerted, as silence brings us face to face with who we are, like a mirror against the velvet face of the moss covered rock, only to show peace and stillness. When we find ourselves striving, constantly striving to be better, to achieve more, we can also realize more and more that stillness, heart-fullness and peace, the deep peace that pervades everything and fills all with a gentle light, a gentle radiance, that is what fulfills us, what renews us.

My heart is full, with deep peace and the knowing that Deer is right beside me. This gentle connection to the earth, this heart resonance, is how I feel grounded and centered. Slow movement, kindness, gentleness, an open heart, but most of all, peace. I can feel my ears flicking, these long brown furred ones, of a deer's, and the antlers, the antlers of light that I feel glowing.

There are some times when we just can't hide the truth from ourselves anymore. We've been traveling down one road for a long time, everything going fine, and then whoops, there's a tug on the heartstrings so strong that you -can't- ignore it or deny it. It's just that strong. It requires someone equally strong to put all their faith in Spirit, because it requires that kind of strength to create the kind of world we really want to live in. Our wishes don't come "easy", just because we have been so hard ingrained and conditioned about the way life should be and the way the "world works". If we don't abide by these seeming hard and fast rules, we won't get where we need to be, according to those who have come before us. They, and only they know the way, it would seem.

There's more than one way to be, though, and that's part of what this new reality is all about. We may not have "plans", but rather hearing Angels' whispers is enough for us. When we ask for support and guidance from our higher selves, we always get it. Fear and worry and doubt simply don't exist in that consciousness because they aren't true. They are figments of the human imagination, simply conjured up to help in certain systems that aren't relevant to where we are now. Now is the time to be as open as you can, because signs are being dropped left and right, before us and around us.

This time requires strength, because there is a period of waiting. Some are experiencing severe opposition from the outside world, while it's hard to handle, it's necessary because it's through this constant questioning of what we're doing that -we- get really clear about exactly what it is that we want. Even arguments or fights with another are providing us with road maps of how to proceed. It requires keen senses to realize just how this is being instrumented, but it's there.

Above all, everything is going just as it's planned. Perhaps you know when the next step will be taken, or even what it might be. Trust these, as these are angelic road maps, and are invaluable right now. Above all, trust yourself. You are a shining star, and even if things seem rocky, they are going to change very, very soon.

As sistahraven puts it, the spiritual labor of waiting can be uncomfortable, but something amazing always comes out at the end of it. Yes, I am waiting. I know that it will yield great results, but still, am waiting.

To others around us, this wait may seem ridiculous, even foolish. Perhaps they feel that we are making a mistake by not going the route we were going. Rest assured, your guides are all around you, reassuring you that you are indeed going in the right direction. It can seem like chaos when others don't feel what we feel, and they want us to go in the direction that feels safe and secure.

This is the age though, of letting go of sureness and "security" which is granted to us by human measures and smothering structures. The only true security comes from relaxing and surrendering to the Universe, to God, to Spirit. The constant trust and surrender that we find ourselves giving - this is the life flow that sustains us, for in the trust, we gain wisdom and remember sacred truths of who we really are.

Sometimes it's really hard to trust when we can't see what's going on. That's the purpose of our guides. They know all, they see all, and they share what we need to know with us when we're ready for it. This lack of trust, if we ever feel it (or most likely when, because we all have those times), is never anything to be punished for, for truly, we all have our moments of disconnection. There are times when we are just to be in the dark and there are no two ways around it.

However, know that everything is happening in divine order and balance. Everything is being taken care of. Everything. The only truth right now is that you are ok. It may not always feel ok -- sometimes things feel really off balance, but truly, you are ok. We are currently on the springboard to a new reality, a reality our souls are creating for us. It's a beautiful place, in every way, and it's birthing us as much as we are birthing it.

Before any great happening, there's a waiting period. Always. This can take the form of just waiting hours before departing for a place (or even minutes, which can seem like an eternity), or the patience it takes to wait for that special email or phone call. Always though, our Angels, guides and Fairies are looking after us. It is just like saying the prayer before commencing a sacred activity -- first one sets the intention or states the goal, always in the interests of the higher good of the person and the planet, and then one waits, even meditates, until the right time to start it -- and it is the wait which doesn't hurt too much. If we are on our path, it feels right, effortless. We may even understand the awareness behind why we need to wait.

Know always that things are happening in their perfect order. There is always a divine balance that is being consistently brought into harmony. After all, that is the dance of Life. If you are in a time of waiting, call your guides close around you. This isn't a time to panic, a time to fear because even if someone dismisses your idea, that it's not going to happen. You are in alignment, but sometimes you just have to wait a little longer for things to completely fall into place. You are in the right place -- sometimes others have some catching up to do, or might take a little longer. Rest assured though, your dream, your vision, and what you hold with love but without attachment, will come true. We are always pure channels for love and light, and we know this. Right now though, some may be experiencing the tension of, "Is this right?" because things aren't happening exactly at the snap of a finger.

Well, things -are- happening at the snap of a finger, but it's mostly Angels' work, and they are working, working, working to create the perfect place for us. All is in divine order, all is in balance. Remember that you are being supported in every way. Just be patient, a little longer. You're almost there!

Love is the only thing that truly exists. All other things are just illusion. If you're finding yourself behind a veil, that's ok. For some, it is time to be behind a veil, as things are being prepared for your arrival, but you're not quite ready to see what's going on. That's perfectly alright, and it's just in alignment with your soul's purpose. Don't be afraid - make sure you get some caffeine into your system, be outdoors, read, take flower essences, whatever you need to do, do it! This is the time to take extra good care of yourself.

Where we are arriving is a very, very special place. Places emotionally, physically, and spiritually are being specially prepared for us and places are being emptied for us to fill. This is an exciting time, and it is the time to let our heart's desire take the seat. Some of us are experiencing a leap in quantum consciousness. That's what today was for me. I experienced the turbulence of change, not being able to see my hand in front of my face, and stumbling about, looking for answers. I wanted answers, dammit, not the glowing whispers of flowers and the brief caress of rain. No, I wanted something solid and proof worthy. I wanted to feel like myself, and darn it all but that wasn't going to happen until the Angels were good and ready for me to.

It is at this time that we must, absolutely must surrender everything we thought before that we would do. Dramatic changes are taking their place in our lives. Relationships breaking up (or growing stronger because of mutual communication, openness, but most importantly, TRUST), jobs changing or loss, because there is just something better for us out there. It may take a little while for these changes to fully take place. We're in a time of great transition, and not everything is quite set up yet. The Angels are at work though, preparing these places where we will feel even greater joy, fulfillment, and fulfilling our soul purpose (of course, these can change!) than what we felt before, even if we were at the best job ever. There is always something different, something which serves a different, deeper, higher purpose, and this is when these places and situations are being shown to us.

It is so important to remember Love, for Love is what carries us through. Letting the uncertainty be there, for that is the part of the process as well. Nothing happens by accident, and everything is in perfect harmony with everything else. It doesn't always feel that way, at least not to our earth bodies, but our higher selves keep whispering, "You're alright, just a little longer. Just be patient a little longer." And they're right! There are exciting new changes just around the corner. Some of you may already know where you're going, some of you may have no clue. Both are ok!

You are at the precipice, where everything that has worked in the past is suddenly no longer working, and everything that you dreamed of (or possibly not because you thought it was too grand for you -- no longer!) is just ahead. The only decision you have to make, the only choice there is, is if you can let yourself be guided to stepping off that precipice. We all have wings, and we sure as heck are going to be using them! This is the time to trust in your heart's song. What have you dared to want but never have dared to ask for? Trust your heart. It sings a song that none has ever been able to destroy or crush. Pay attention to this, for this is the next step, the step in growing your wings and letting them unfurl. You are a child of God, of Spirit, the universe, and by golly, you're supported, loved and cherished on all sides, above, below and from within!

I'm finding myself more and more connected to my heart chakra, more and more a channel of Love and Light. We all are. This is the consciousness that we are born into, and to which we are growing to, for it is the inherent state of all sentient beings, of all our relations. I'm finding myself more and more called upon to Awaken others, to remember the authentic, genuine power and the authentic, genuine self that we each carry inside. In doing so, I'm Awakening my own vibration and feeling it rise. Each of us holds the key to the planet's evolution, and evolving it is!

It is imperative that we remember the longing of our inner child, the things which have held such joy for us in the past, the memories, the gifts, the outings which brought us delight and wonder. It is at this time that these things are being brought into the light, for they show us the way to our soul's purpose. They may have been buried, but it is now our job, our duty to feel these things bubble back up, blossoming forth in beautiful pinwheels of color, delight, and song. Whatever these things may be, they are our future. They are the children of our hearts. These beautiful, shining jewels are exactly where we need to be. Perhaps a place, a person, or a thing pops up as you read this. Or it may later on, when you least expect it to. Trust this information. We are walking road maps to where the next generation is going, and we are a part of this evolution, bringing into it our butterfly selves, finally ready to flutter out of the chrysalis.

Even when the going seems really rough, for whatever reason, I still hear my guides insisting, in kind, calm, clear and loving voices, that everything is in divine order and complete perfection. No matter if today has felt crummy (maybe just the morning was worth waking up for -- I would have happily given up the rest of the day to cherish the morning), or if I haven't felt myself; it's somehow all part of the plan. I've literally tried everything that I could think of to do, and it comes down to - taking care of myself in the best way I know how to, ask for guidance, and trust that everything is happening for a reason.

It doesn't matter if structures are seeming to come to an end, or our stay in them is no longer serving us (this is more likely the case!), but it's all happening for a reason, and it's completely ok to feel disoriented, like the carpet has been pulled out from under us, and maybe even angry that we're off balance. These are ok! This ascension and awakening process isn't always easy, especially for highly sensitive people. However, even though it has its bumps, aches and pains, just like growing bones or teeth, it really is all for our good. Sometimes we have to go through everything, all the disorientation and awkwardness, before we can experience the beautiful bounty that exists for us. It is all a process, and it is all ok.

It's very important to remember that your guides are there to help you, and they require only that you ask them. I've found myself reminding others, close friends, that no matter what their seen support (other friends, earthly support systems) is doing (especially if they're having a hard time with it, or finding themselves unable to trust as many as they did before), they have unseen support, the Angels, and all their guidance (higher self, Spirit, the universe, whatever language you use for your intuition) to serve them and assist them in whatever way they may need. These beings and energy only help when asked, as they won't ever interfere with our free will. Ask them for whatever you need, and ask them often. Feel stuck, lost, confused? Ask them! They're there to help you, to serve and to assist in whatever ways they can. They're your own special support system, and there's plenty for everyone.

Well, (by the way, I was light_whisperer, and now I've changed my name again) things are changing again, which means I have a new name.

This I snagged from a friend of a friend's journal, and found it TOO awesome not to share. It's even better if you watch it in the full version on youtube. This made me sob - how I love this song!